Sunday, 31 July 2011


Back to reality on tuesday - wistle and i are getting the train back to london - but mi maid of honour at a friends wedding on friday which im looking forward too - off to rigby and peller to get a corset thursday - i kid ye not. vivienne westwood dress, very un-croissant-forgiving.
my dad caught a 15kg tuna! which is pretty amazing -
i went sailing on molly yesterday with pete -
we're having a barbecue tonight which my dad is cooking. we went to the butchers and he got steaks that weigh more than i did when i was born - and i was not a small baby - potato shaped as you well know.

be well, rachel x

ps. i should point out that it is not my dad in the photo -

Thursday, 28 July 2011


My dad is coming out with his buddy Harry today to go tuna fishing -
haha - there will most definitely be a story of some kind to follow and hopefully a photo or two x

Tuesday, 26 July 2011


I have to say this in the wake of Amy Winehouses death and the fact that people are leaving bottles of vodka and cigarettes at her shrine.

I wish that the public perception of addiction was correct. That people understood it is not lack of will power, but a disease as powerful and dibilitating as any other potentially terminal disease. It is a disease not just of the physical body but also of the emotional and the spiritual.

HOWEVER - i feel i have to accept that the world at large will never truly understand this - and why would they need to? Those of us in recovery from addiction understand because our lives depend on it. It is like trying to explain to someone who has never had cancer what having cancer is like, or diabetes, or a heart condition. unless you have it, it is impossible to understand. And i have to accept that we as a society in general (not all), will always slow down to look at a terrible and fatal car crash. Rock and Roll - and i am qualified to talk about this - is about music, LIVING, expression of the spirit, sharing, allowing yourself to be free. It is NOT about killing oneself with addiction, dying young, club 27 give me a fucking break. leaving alcohol at a young girls shrine, is like leaving a jar with mini tumours at the grave of someone who died from cancer. It is a sad day. IM afraid i will have to hand this one over to God and thank him that i found recovery from a fatal disease that only perhaps 5% of addicts ever are blessed enough to find.

Friday, 22 July 2011


God Bless - Grandma buried today - 102 years old - xx

Monday, 18 July 2011


I am having a nightmare with the pool. since it has been finished it hasnt been used once, a filter has broken, the salt machine got a leak, the heating pump won't work properly, and the company who were happy to charge a fortune to do the pool have after sales service that is non existent. i am seriously considering naming and shaming this company as publicly as i can so no-one else has to put up with this kind of service. check out my pool. nice and cloudy. this has been finished for 5 months - i really really hate when a company does this - takes your money, promises the world, then leaves you up the creek. i know this is a high class problem, but it is annoying nonetheless, rachel x x x

Monday, 11 July 2011

Sunday, 10 July 2011


Here in France with Wistle - tomorrow is the big day she meets skrapovsky - i hope they get on - eek.

its amazing weather here - so lucky

rach x

Sunday, 3 July 2011


or was it just annoying?

Ah, where to begin? i have mostly been
stopping smoking
having laser eye surgery to correct my vision.

So its not surprising there has been a gap =

I dont feel so bad - amazing really -

R x