ALMODOVAR

IT WASN'T SO BAD!

2011-08-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

although it was a really long day, up at 4.30am and then trains across france - through the tunnel and home by 7pm, it actually wasn't so bad. wistle is a hardy traveller, we stopped in Paris at a bistro for lunch, and did quite a bit of napping on the train -
Nice to be back in London, see my guys,
im maid of honour at a friends wedding on friday which will be fun - and then planning to do some work before i head back to france -
rach x

CHOOCHOO

2011-08-01T12:16:00.000-07:00

Going back to london tomorrow - by train - with wistle.
not looking forward to it really - it'll be 12 hours. yuck.
wish me luck - R x

OVER

2011-07-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

Back to reality on tuesday - wistle and i are getting the train back to london - but mi maid of honour at a friends wedding on friday which im looking forward too - off to rigby and peller to get a corset thursday - i kid ye not. vivienne westwood dress, very un-croissant-forgiving.
my dad caught a 15kg tuna! which is pretty amazing -
i went sailing on molly yesterday with pete -
we're having a barbecue tonight which my dad is cooking. we went to the butchers and he got steaks that weigh more than i did when i was born - and i was not a small baby - potato shaped as you well know.

be well, rachel x

ps. i should point out that it is not my dad in the photo -

FISHING

2011-07-28T02:17:00.001-07:00

My dad is coming out with his buddy Harry today to go tuna fishing -
haha - there will most definitely be a story of some kind to follow and hopefully a photo or two x

POINTLESS

2011-07-26T09:13:00.000-07:00

I have to say this in the wake of Amy Winehouses death and the fact that people are leaving bottles of vodka and cigarettes at her shrine.

I wish that the public perception of addiction was correct. That people understood it is not lack of will power, but a disease as powerful and dibilitating as any other potentially terminal disease. It is a disease not just of the physical body but also of the emotional and the spiritual.

HOWEVER - i feel i have to accept that the world at large will never truly understand this - and why would they need to? Those of us in recovery from addiction understand because our lives depend on it. It is like trying to explain to someone who has never had cancer what having cancer is like, or diabetes, or a heart condition. unless you have it, it is impossible to understand. And i have to accept that we as a society in general (not all), will always slow down to look at a terrible and fatal car crash. Rock and Roll - and i am qualified to talk about this - is about music, LIVING, expression of the spirit, sharing, allowing yourself to be free. It is NOT about killing oneself with addiction, dying young, club 27 give me a fucking break. leaving alcohol at a young girls shrine, is like leaving a jar with mini tumours at the grave of someone who died from cancer. It is a sad day. IM afraid i will have to hand this one over to God and thank him that i found recovery from a fatal disease that only perhaps 5% of addicts ever are blessed enough to find.

IDA GILL -

2011-07-22T12:49:00.000-07:00

God Bless - Grandma buried today - 102 years old - xx

POOL NIGHTMARE

2011-07-18T06:52:00.000-07:00

I am having a nightmare with the pool. since it has been finished it hasnt been used once, a filter has broken, the salt machine got a leak, the heating pump won't work properly, and the company who were happy to charge a fortune to do the pool have after sales service that is non existent. i am seriously considering naming and shaming this company as publicly as i can so no-one else has to put up with this kind of service. check out my pool. nice and cloudy. this has been finished for 5 months - i really really hate when a company does this - takes your money, promises the world, then leaves you up the creek. i know this is a high class problem, but it is annoying nonetheless, rachel x x x

FRESH KILL

2011-07-14T07:33:00.001-07:00

THE MEETING

2011-07-11T09:17:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

JE SUIS EN FRANCE ENCORE

2011-07-10T00:24:00.001-07:00

Here in France with Wistle - tomorrow is the big day she meets skrapovsky - i hope they get on - eek.

its amazing weather here - so lucky

rach x

DID ABSENCE MAKE THE HEART GROW FONDER?

2011-07-03T02:28:00.001-07:00

or was it just annoying?

Ah, where to begin? i have mostly been
working,
stopping smoking
having laser eye surgery to correct my vision.

So its not surprising there has been a gap =

I dont feel so bad - amazing really -

R x

WORK

2011-06-20T12:35:00.000-07:00

I've started my new project -
I'm orchestrating a very large piece for a 90 piece symphony orchestra -
aaaaaaaaaaagh - but i do love to work and the time flies.
the downside is that almost every available moment of clear headspace is now filled with all the instruments of the orchestra one by one running through my head -
ah well, there are certainly worse things to happen.
i can't divulge more yet, but you'll be the first to know - of course.
much love
R x

ONE FOOT IN THE RAVE

2011-06-17T13:35:00.000-07:00

WATCHING BLACKADDER GOES FORTH FOR THE 100TH TIME, WITH PLAITS ON MY HEAD, A TWINKLE IN MY EYE, 6 DOGS ROUND MY FEET AND ONE FOOT IN THE RAVE.

LIFE IS GOOD -
RACH X

HOORAY

2011-06-15T04:28:00.000-07:00

Internet back on - today - the day i am leaving.
weather fabulous! today - the day i am leaving.
ah well, i get to see my guys in london and especially the ever -invincible, undying Spuddo.
Always hate saying goodbye to Skrapovsky -
Finally got permission from the mayor to go ahead with the colours for painting of the outside of the house -
so its all good -
love rach x

Defeated

2011-06-13T09:26:00.000-07:00

I am in France. There was literally a monsoon. The pool awash with mud needs emptying. Some flooding. No Internet for a week. Doing this via bloody titchy horrible iPhone that insists on correcting all my perfectly spelt words to non words. Eg it just tried to change spelt to Speke. I'm defeated and pissed off. Always problems.
At least I have lovely eyes. ( iPhone wants to change them to lively eyes. Lovely not a word steve jobs you twat? )
R x

JE SUIS.....

2011-06-07T12:48:00.000-07:00

.... en france.

avec Skrapovsky - brainstorming my new project.

It's a good one - as soon as i can i will tell all.

Rach x

THE CAMERA TOTALLY DOES LIE

2011-06-05T00:47:00.000-07:00

My forearm is not that big and my nose is not that small. its not easy taking a picture of oneself - but at least no-one is capturing a piece of my soul.

Off to France tomorrow - can't wait - lots to do -

hope you are all well-

ps spud still hanging on in there. i think he may have a portrait of himself in the attic

I NEVER

2011-06-01T14:44:00.000-07:00

POODLED

2011-05-30T11:23:00.000-07:00

IVE SAID IT BEFORE AND ILL SAY IT AGAIN - YOU CANNOT BEAT A POODLE.

HE IS SOOOOOOOOOO NAUGHTY,

WHICH IS WHY I LIKE HIM SO.

AS I TYPE HE HAS HIS FOOT IN MY EAR AND HAS JUST CHEWED THE RUG

ENOUGH OF THE DEEP .....

2011-05-27T12:10:00.000-07:00

About to watch the season finale of HOUSE -
deep joy -
r x

QUEST FOR LOVE AND HAPPINESS

2011-05-26T08:42:00.000-07:00

From the minute we are concious, everyone is essentially on a quest for love and happiness.
however we are treated, we long for a parents love and approval and the search for happiness in which ever way we can find it, and try many ways. every friendship, and relationship is in fact just part of this search. I observe people trying many different ways to find it, looking for it in drugs, drink, relationships, material things, saving the world, marrying well matched partners who will give them a sense of normalcy - a family, seeking always for love and happiness - and if it sounds like i am being judgmental and sneering, i am guilty of all myself - apart from the marriage thing - ha
i dont believe that all life is suffering, i seek for love and happiness in everything i do - and many times i find it.
Normal can fuck off.
I want it all.

Have a good day,
love rach xx

foxy

2011-05-22T13:00:00.000-07:00

im too ashamed to look you in the eye. i appear to be wearing fox all in one pyjamas, and you cant see, but i also have a poodle on my lap.

hahahahhahah x x x

IN THE COUNTRY

2011-05-20T11:58:00.000-07:00

Weekend in the country - frolicking in the fields like a fine young filly (in my mind - lets not address the reality)
Heaven.
R x

PEOPLE OF THE PAST

2011-05-18T10:39:00.000-07:00

Today i have been thinking about people i loved who i don't see or speak with anymore.
Its a sad fact. Sometimes because i have been unforgiving, and sometime it is they - i have a perpensity to impulsive drama you know.

Quite honestly - i don't have resentments anymore, but hope they know the peace and happiness i myself seek.

Don't get me started on my inner child.

R x x

ps perhaps i should write about what im wearing tomorrow. my philosophical moments bore even me, so god knows how you all feel about it.

SKRAPOVSKY

2011-05-17T14:16:00.000-07:00

Enough of the deep stuff.
Here is a pic of Skrapovsky - i miss him when i am in london. he has taken to eating spinach and salmon and has just had a very nice day on the islands by Cannes.

ASK YOURSELF THIS -

2011-05-16T01:39:00.000-07:00

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU WERE UNAFRAID?

THE HEART

2011-05-14T04:49:00.001-07:00

THE HEART DOESN'T NEED CONVINCING - THE HEART KNOWS
R x

ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO TAKE A GOOD PHOTO ON THE BLOODY I-MAC

2011-05-11T11:20:00.000-07:00

i am on the phone here being played elevator music - hence the expression, but im sure i dont look like this?.... and you just can't capture my inner spiritual shine in such a form.

all good here - have started work project - very exciting.

happy happy joy joy

rachel x

MISCHIEF MISCHIEF

2011-05-04T00:22:00.000-07:00

There is a naughty side to me -

this is what it looks like.

rarely captured on camera,

age about 6

R x

BLIGHTY

2011-04-29T11:15:00.000-07:00

Quick update, returning home to good old Blighty tomorrow.
Will miss the Skrapovsky, but am sooooo looking forward to seeing the other 6 guys (and gal).
work to be done, dust to be eaten, yoga to catch up on and lots of friends to hug,
what bliss is this life i lead?
rach x

Lord of the Tongue

2011-04-24T11:01:00.000-07:00

Skrappys tongue is too big for his mouth. it hangs out to varying lengths 75% of the time. We dont care.
Had an amazing week with my family - they're all so sweet and easygoing.
Returning to the UK on Saturday - have been here a month - but loads of problems have been sorted out -
Hope you are all well -
R x

MA FAMILLE

2011-04-19T00:27:00.000-07:00

ON Saturday my family arrived for a week -
Its been a long time since the 3 sisters have spent time together and its wonderful.
There has been lots of laughing and reminiscing (mostly about me and my bad behaviour) - but all on good spirits.
We spent the day on the boat yesterday and moored out by the islands.
Today im doing house stuff and my lot are going to the supermarket to get food for a barbecue -

Skrappy (or Skrapovsky as he is called by his russian step mother) - has also been good value for money.

A LIFE ON THE OCEAN WAVE

2011-04-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a great success. we sailed over to the islands near Cannes - heaven!
i got really burnt -
it seems i am a natural at the tiller - who would have guessed?

PIES

2011-04-10T09:13:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but whenever im in france i eat so many pies - and i dont mean metaphorically.
there is an abundance of croissants, pain au chocolat, filet de boeuf, frites, and all manner of things that send me into a pirahna like frenzy. ah well, progress not perfection. i am still beautiful (on the inside).
had fabulous day on the boat - there is a tiny island with a monastary on it where we had lunch - (see? more eating) and some gentle motoring about, tomorrow, we are on my cornish crabber. i promise to take pics. i quite unconciously hum, wistle, sing ' a life on the ocean wave"whilst sailing, much to petes annoyance, who hates humming of any kind.
ma famille arrive samedi soir, and i am looking forward to spending some time with them - more pies im sure - and movies with my nephew in the cinema. whilst out on the boat friday we saw someone testing out a new gadget. a back pack that sucks up water and then ejects it at such a force that it propels you up to 8 metres in the air, like james bond. this guy was literally hovering above the sea. it also dives apparently. they cost 130,000 euros, so ive ordered 2. for fucks sake. whats wrong with a snorkel mask and flippers? in my day we made do with a net and a lilo.
thats all, just did some yoga. when i did the warrior pose skrappy barked like a rottweiller for about 10 mins. which of course didnt interrupt my serenity and meditation at all.
yeah - right,
love rachel x

En Bateau

2011-04-08T01:12:00.000-07:00

Today im spending the day on the boat. i'll take a pic -
deep joy
R x

France

2011-04-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

The weather is amazing here. The sun is doing me the world of good.
The black dogs have left my yard.
I think i may go out for a sail later this week in my little Cornish Crabber - Molly.
There is also a local antique fair which is always worth a look.
what a life!
R x

je suis en france

2011-04-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

Bonjour - je suis en france. the sun is shining, its heaven!
Sorry for the non-posting, had a lot going on - still have but feel happier about it.
must post a picture of Skrappy -
got an appointment with the mayors office to try and agree on a colour that i can paint the house here - crazy huh! ah well,
hope you are all well,
rachel x

Strange Week so far

2011-03-30T05:24:00.000-07:00

Been messed about by estate agents, have a friend who's sick in hospital, dog got an infection, weird money stuff going on, raining, yoga body glow, massive new work commission (will tell all when confirmed), all high class problems my end -
Rach x
oh - and a poodle who crosses his legs ALL the time

ROYAL ALBERT HALL

2011-03-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

So was at the Royal Albert Hall last night, in a box, and the president of Island records said to me, "have you ever played here?" and i thought dont be silly, and then i remembered that i had. Ive done some amazing things you know. Also had a very friendly cigarette with a group of fellows who referred to themselves as the lost boys, as over the years they had become famous for missing the best bots of particular events by being outside for cigarettes at the wrong time.
What else - suns out, spuds still alive and im sending my Almodovar music to the man himself in Madrid - and have had the lyrics translated into Spanish.

love rachel x

ps - YeS - but are you REALLY happy?

HAPPY DAYS

2011-03-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

The sun is out - im about to do some yoga (that doesnt sound right to me),
Feeling much jollier -
have a good day,
Rachel x

IM STILL NOT QUITE RIGHT

2011-03-22T10:49:00.000-07:00

But then thats not necessarily a bad thing.
And i have been thinking about a new project - as soon as its landed ill let you know.
It will involve 10 songs - arranged for string quartet piano and voice.
Sounds square? It won't be.
I'm still a bit sad.
I'm a little nostalgic this evening.
Someone not in my life who should be.

R x

ONWARDS AND UPWARDS

2011-03-21T10:48:00.000-07:00

In many ways today has been as difficult as yesterday was - but there has been some resolution.
As i am always reminded, it is only ever myself i can change, or my reactions to people and situations.
I think its a question of immaturity - on my part.
So here is wishing you all well,
R x

FUCKING PEOPLE

2011-03-20T04:17:00.000-07:00

Honestly - i really do not understand why i let myself get upset by things other people do and say.
It's an utterly pointless exercise. My being upset does not upset their day at all, only mine.
So i feel hurt, and they probably feel fabulous. You might say its because im only human - but when i am moved or upset by situations or things that happen to people i care about, i accept this, even though i may not be able to do anything about it.
Bugger.
Anyway - life is good - i feel grateful and am full of love, (and just a tincy bit of anger)
Hope you all have a good Sunday -
r x

Tomoko - san

2011-03-18T06:55:00.001-07:00

Hi all, if you havent already done so please go visit our dear friend Tomokos facebook page to give her some love and support as she lives in the town next to Fukushima.
Love Rachel x
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=593279195

BLOODY HELL

2011-03-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

Its been a strange couple of days. I am deeply saddened by what has happened and continues to happen in Japan. It brings great perspective. I feel powerless also. which i am.
Writing about anything else right now seems trivial - all is well, as are those i love.
Staying out of mischief for a while - you'll be the first to hear.
Life is beyond my control - thank goodness,
Rach xxxxx

x

2011-03-15T12:32:00.001-07:00

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Japan-Earthquake-Animal-Rescue-and-Support/207835229228979

TODAY

2011-03-15T01:01:00.001-07:00

Aching a little - but full of passion and love and gratitude -
R x

RACHEL.....

2011-03-14T09:20:00.001-07:00

.....is about to do yoga. not feeling the earth through my womb yet??

I'M SO HAPPY TODAY

2011-03-12T10:23:00.001-08:00

.....just thought id share that.
Already thinking up a new project - R x

NEW VIDEO PART 3

2011-03-10T13:07:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXh59xFJo1g&feature=player_embedded#at=82

R x

TEN CDS

2011-03-09T11:08:00.001-08:00

im going to press up and sign 10 cds in my home studio - so if theres anyone out there who would like, let me know and ill send! you can private message me your adresses - R x

YOGA

2011-03-09T04:07:00.001-08:00

Having a very lazy day today - had brunch, bit of shopping, going to get in the purple onesie, then read until nap, then dinner, then episode of HOUSE. yoga tomorrow. im so inflexible. and my yoga teacher won't let me smoke while i do it. whats that about? rachel x

BLIGHTY

2011-03-07T12:31:00.000-08:00

Back in the green land. so nice to see all the guys - spuds fading a little. bless him,
anyway, im going to stay on here for a while as i think up new mischief -
keep listening -

www.myspace.com/rachelintheattic

ALMODOVAR

2011-03-06T04:41:00.000-08:00

IT'S DONE! All 6 tracks (with an additional instrumental) are finished and recorded.
At 6 pm all tracks will be loaded onto

www.myspace.com/rachelintheattic

Dont forget to scroll down the music player to hear all the music

It's been an intense week. I'm pleased with the finished tracks. There's no way of attaining anything close to perfection when writing and recording 6 songs in 6 days - so i have had to let go of them imperfect.
I really hope you enjoy all of them, and i thank you for the support and encouragement throughout this entire process.

my one sadness will be that many of you will hear the music through a computers speakers - if you can, listen through headphones or make a cd and crank it up loudly and listen with your eyes shut.

Much love to you all -
I'm off for a nap with the Skrap

Rachel - who loves Almodovar

DEMOS

2011-03-06T00:17:00.000-08:00

http://twiturm.com/2aa2o - ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER
http://almodovarlove.tumblr.com/post/3667219736/almodovar-track-teaser - ALMODOVAR

ENJOY -

All six tracks will be posted this evening on

www.myspace.com/rachelintheattic

NEW DEMOS - JUST A PIECE

2011-03-05T14:24:00.000-08:00

ON ITS WAY -

2 DEMO SNIPPETS

ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER

ALMODOVAR (WITH VOCAL)

http://almodovarlove.tumblr.com/post/3667219736/almodovar-track-teaser

LYRICS

2011-03-05T01:02:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWuO4inN1O4&feature=player_embedded

So - i now have written the music for all 6 songs - i have lyrics for 3 of them. so today, i will endeavour to write 3 sets of lyrics. Pete kindly said 'if you need any help" and i was tempted to say "you do it, yes, you do it", but that wouldnt really be playing fair. so wish me luck. i find music so easy to write. i sit at a piano (guitar) and it literally pours out of me. lyrics - not so - the first draft is always full of cliches and cheesiness. But i do believe the real art is finishing things - so here i go.

so far i have one line for All About my mother -
"I'll tell you about a streetcae named desire"

you have what i have written so far for Tie me Up, Tie Me Down

and the for Almodovar i have
"Almodovar"

haha - its a start -
wishing you all a good day,
speak later - R x

ps i am looking to ragged to share a photo

ALMODOVAR

2011-03-04T10:10:00.000-08:00

worked in the studio in antibes today. have written a song called Almodovar on guitar, but my finger picking not up to much - so worked with a guy called Amaury who is genius - i will post the instrumental version of the song tonight - it takes my breath away (not my composing, his genius) x

BIG DAY

2011-03-03T14:58:00.000-08:00

So - im still up and writing - have decided to write a piece simply called Almodovar - on spanish guitar.
And also landed the music for All about my mother - piano.
tomorrow i am spending the day in a "proper" studio to work with a guitar player who will be playing the spanish guitar on the almodovar song - my playing is simply not good enough, - ill take some video -
and then saturday ill be writing lyrics, and sunday recording in my studio - all 6 songs, and mixed, and pete is here to play guitar on all about my mother. And i had a fabulous sail today, and took video of it with me squealing and singing A life on the ocean waves - smoking a fag and shouting ship ho. but it wont upload.
probably a sign. so wish me luck - love love R x

TIE ME UP, TIE ME DOWN DEMO -

2011-03-03T12:10:00.001-08:00

http://almodovarlove.tumblr.com
www.twitter.com/almodovarlove

TIE ME UP - GO SAILING

2011-03-03T00:45:00.000-08:00

So - this morning, a little more on tie me up tie me down, and then i am off on a short sail in my little wooden sailing boat - what fun!
more later - and of course a little demo this evening -
love rachel x

TIE ME UP, TIE ME DOWN - LOVE

2011-03-02T12:08:00.000-08:00

So, although really i shouldnt work on this till tomorrow, i have been writing the music for TIe me up, tie me down. i wouldnt say it is at all spanish sounding. perhaps a little more like a creepy fairground. but what comes out comes out. Today, having been flooded with almodovar for a week, i think of LOVE.
As i was lying in bed this afternoon ( i like a nap, a bit like having 2 days in one), Almodovar confirms what i know to be the truth about love and passion. It takes courage. A life without either is worthless. And to be frank i believe love to be entirely different from comfort and security. a sense of normality. Perhaps it takes a different kind of courage to settle for this. Or is it cowardice? i have been guilty of it myself in the past. Essentially - only true and fearless love makes us vulnerable enough to be hurt in such a way as to make us feel we have been emotionally disembowelled. and i understand why some would turn away from this possibility, and run into the arms of a more suitable, and comfortable space. me - i want it all, and you cant have one without the other.
so - having shared that.
I am about to eat a large indian. meal, not person.
sleep well,
R x

DARK HABITS

2011-03-02T01:29:00.000-08:00

JESUS SAVE ME FROM THESE DARK HABITS

MARY FREE THEM FROM THEIR TERRIBLE SIN

TIGERS, FICTION, DRUG ADDICTION,

REDEEM, REDEEM,

FOR WE ARE DAMNED WITHOUT YOUR LOVE,

WITHOUT YOUR GRACE

FORGIVE US ALL

demo to come in a few minutes.......

DARK HABITS

2011-03-01T22:59:00.000-08:00

WHO WILL SAVE ME FROM THESE DARK HABITS?
WHO CAN FREE ME FROM THEIR TERRIBLE HOLD
TIGER, FICTION, DRUG ADDICTION

WHILE YOU SLEEP -

2011-03-01T12:20:00.000-08:00

Rough vocal - 1st verse and part middle -

http://twiturm.com/uj0xp

TALK TO HER - WHILE YOU SLEEP

2011-03-01T04:46:00.000-08:00

WHILE YOU SLEEP, YOU ARE MINE COMPLETELY
WHILE YOU SLEEP, YOU WHISPER TO ME SWEETLY.
I CLIMB INSIDE TO WATCH YOUR DREAM
UNTIL YOU WAKE I WILL REMAIN
COMMITTED TO YOU DEEPLY

MY LOVE, I WATCH YOU DANCE PAST MY WINDOW,
AND SUDDENLY YOU FELL INTO MY ARMS

SALIERI

2011-03-01T03:26:00.001-08:00

I think the self-pitying Salieri moment is doing me no favours.
So after a pizza and some salad im going back down to work.
R x

DOUBTFUL........

2011-03-01T00:08:00.001-08:00

_ if im going to be able to do any creative work today.
bugger

TALK TO HER

2011-02-28T22:23:00.001-08:00

Up in Dawns Crack. Didnt sleep well. Head full of music and words. Will be working on TALK TO HER song today which is called While you Sleep.

ONE VERSE - ONE CHORUS - GHOSTS DONT CRY - VOLVER

2011-02-28T10:37:00.000-08:00

http://twiturm.com/rkfv2

here is one verse and chorus of Ghosts Dont Cry - inspired by VOLVER.
A rough mix with a demo vocal, you'll hear the rest on Sunday when they are all finished.

love love love
Rachel x

BE STILL

2011-02-28T08:59:00.000-08:00

In order to write, i have to do only 2 things.

1. stay in one spot and be still
2. have a quiet mind

Sounds easy doesnt it.
For someone who lives on coffee and cigarettes, doesnt meditate, spends an awful lot of time in self obsession and has an ego the size of a dragon - its not so easy.

But once i get out of my own way, its not so bad. xxxxxxx
love love love

VOLVER IN PROGRESS

2011-02-28T05:09:00.001-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/AlmodovarLove

lyrics so far - first draft - unedited and not complete -

GHOSTS DON’T CRY

VOLVER

You thought that I was dead

But underneath the bed, I hide.

Laying flowers on my grave

The east wind blows the years away

So unkind

Im so sorry that I lied,

I had no choice, I had to hide

And leave the ashes far behind me.

The other lovers I forgave

I always looked another way

And didn’t see the sin before me

Behind these shuttered windows

Ev’ry day I live In purgatory/endless guilt

For being blind to such a crime,

Till you embrace me,

Ev’ry day I’ll die

But now I hope you’ll understand

The bloody knife still in your hand

Your husband in the freezer

The devil burning in his bed

He didn’t wake till he was dead

After all he could to please her

VOICE OVER IN SPANISH –

“I NEED YOU MUM

I DON’T KNOW HOW IVE LIVED ALL THESE YEARS WITHOUT YOU

DON’T SAY THAT

I’LL START TO CRY

AND GHOSTS DON’T CRY”

I could feel how you despised

I saw the hatred in your eyes

But Couldn’t hear the silence

I understand you had to leave

And take the secret far from me,

Your sister child inside you.

Behind this door I’ll be

With you across the street from me,

We’ll hide.

Ev’ry kiss, a minute made

From fourteen years of empty space inside.

So the sinners turn to dust,

The victims of a deadly lust

BACKING TRACK FOR VOLVER -

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GHOSTS DON'T CRY - VOLVER

2011-02-28T01:54:00.000-08:00

Having coffee break. Have made real headway with the lyrics to VOLVER.
here i will share with you the first 2 lines -

IT BEGINS

2011-02-27T23:45:00.001-08:00

Up early - washed and dressed, and about to go down into my studio.
dont know what i will start on first. But i have a terrier, a coffee and a pen.
thats all you could ever need.
r x

TIE ME UP,

2011-02-27T13:08:00.001-08:00

TIE ME UP, TIE ME DOWN,
CALL ME A WHORE,
I'LL CALL YOU A CLOWN

PURE GENIUS

2011-02-27T00:40:00.001-08:00

STUDIO IN WAITING

2011-02-25T01:28:00.001-08:00

Watched VOLVER last night. If i hadnt worked in a crematorium for 2 years, i would have cried.

VALBONNE AND SKRAPOVSKY

2011-02-24T10:04:00.000-08:00

Lunch today in Valbonne - heaven. Meet Skrappy - lovingly called Skrapovsky by my friend Zanna who takes care of him when i am in england. he was a runt - no one wanted him. he weighs one kilo and his eyes are too far apart. when i found him, he was also a little bald on top and was more rat than dog. i adore him. hes a mess.

I LOVE SHUTTERS

2011-02-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

i dont know why - but i do. there is a fabulous little restaurant in the old town square here where i drink strong coffee and smoke. Im sure i will write some of the lyrics for Almodovar whilst i sit right here. It is run by the most adorable people who treat me like a star and are very sweet about my bad french. they smile kindly as i tell them that in london i am a golden retriever and that i love to snow in the morning.

TECH NIGHTMARE AND TIGERS

2011-02-22T14:32:00.000-08:00

My demo rig has crashed - and in my cinema, the HDMI cable is buggered and ive got no audio on my DVD. so as amusing as it is watching nuns smoking crack pipes with a prostitute with no sound - id better wait. and to top it all, i seem to be wearing a purple jumpsuit and my head feels strange. i admit defeat - for now - and will resume manana.

PREPARATION

2011-02-21T09:40:00.000-08:00

I HAVE PREPARED THE STUDIO AND WRITING ROOM HERE IN FRANCE - GETTING READY TO CREATE

UPDATE - HAVE WIRED UP MY STUDIO AND DOING A TEST TONIGHT -

AM SURE THERE WILL BE A GHOST IN THE MACHINE?

ALMODOVAR

2011-02-17T01:54:00.000-08:00

HI ALL - PLEASE FOLLOW MY NEW MUSIC PROJECT "ALMODOVAR" STARTING MONDAY 28TH FEB. 6 AMODOVAR FILMS, 6 SONGS, 6 DAYS.
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SEE YOU THERE - X

The Last Cigarette

2010-11-06T12:34:00.000-07:00